my bus didnt come this morning....what a rip-off...i waited and waited and waited till i grew old and finally i had to get my dad to send me...the usual routine....boring day....run around skool like jerks....but we had phy class...and it wasnt tht bad....but wat makes me sad is tht pn lim is leaving the skool...and she was such a good teacher...no wait....she IS and WILL always be a good teacher.....the rest of the dayz were boring...it was till val thought me how to play mafia and it was fun...well...its the last day of skool...i just wanna wish everyone a happy holidays and SPM students dont worry i'll pray for u....and soon ur gonna be liberated...and oh yeah....shal,have fun in india!!! and preetz...do keep in contact alright...coz i cant call u on ur hp....ttfn

wow, preetz finally gone. Kinda hard to believe since i've been dreading it for a few years already. We have always been so close since Form 2 now it is really hitting me that shes gone. Ive got no one to spontaneously call out for a movie and no one to tell all my stupid jokes to. I know that this may sound a little selfish but i guess it isn't a bed of roses on her part either but somehow i know that she'll be fine although she doen't really know it herself yet. i really hope that things go well for them. Since there's a whole punjabi community there it should not be too bad mixing around right?? The good thing about the whole shift is that she doesn't have to sit for SPM which we'll all be slopping over with next year.I really wonder what things  are gonna be like for her there. I cant seem to find her blog so i dont really have a way of connecting with her other than e-mail. Well, i guess that this is what life throws at us at times.I got to go see Chicken Little now......yey....

happy deepavali and hari raya to everyone.....usually this saying means a lot to people.....but this year to me it had a tone of finality....marking down the end of the the skooling dayz....telling me tht i have one fren less to say happy deepavali to.....and also brings out the means of the upcoming ever-horrifying spm....okay so im a bit far-fetched.....lets not talk about this shall we...just wanted to wish everyone a happy hols....enjoy the break.....c ya soon....and keep in contact with all of us okay preetz?buhbyes...

this is my first time writing in here since god knows when....i got myself a new pair of specs and sunglasses....my sunglasses looks damn cool....but i look darn weird wearing it....lolz....but oh wat the heck...as long as i like it im gonna keep it......

about the previous post....about the world changing...was i the source of the issue...coz i blurly remembered posting something about it...did i ...or did i not??...

yea...people change...so do i..i'm not the way i used to be....i took a turn for a better life.....trying to adapt being in a different class with u guys was the reason.....i had a choice.....change and make new friends or just sulk at being put into a different class.....i made a desicion......and wat i learned from this was....how do i say it...i broke the ice...(did i phrase this correctly?)...im no longer the recluse that i used to be....i made a whole new bunch of friends...i learned so many things(not educational of coz) from them....my communication skills improved...and most important of all is tht i found out tht there are others who"co-exist" with us in this world...not that im saying that with u guys i dont see anyone else...but its that i learned to open up and get to know more people...although people tend to change..the bonds between those "particular people" will always remain....a friend will be a friend.....and that is that...i'll still be queen of the freaking universe aka countess offwithurhead..... weirdos inc and WRC will live.....heard of si tenggangs homecoming?anyways...wat im trying to say is.....no matter how i change...the change wont be drastic until people feel tht they dont know me anymore...i'll still be the "dirty-minded" and "blur" gal tht i am...right? right! tell me if u read this....

i completely agree with shal...as weird as she may be..she tells it like it is...being yourself is jusz easier..not only on yourself but on everyone else you come into contact with..being enigmatic and a chameleon of sorts works sometimes to provide comic relief and a change of pace...but after a whle it's comforting to know that somewhere below the surface lies a genuine individual...change is inevitable but people tend to adapt and thus the change in a person is usually gradual and hardly as drastic as some people tend to make it...there was once this dead due who said..it is impossible to step into the same river twice...now usually i'd be dead set against anything any dead dude had to say but in this fleeting instance i can only agree...the entire universe is in a state of constant flux...so how can we, the lil specks in the big shebang, expect to stay the same?? if people nevr changed..we'd still be burning witches at the stake..we'd still be cannibals...we'd still be living in darkness because the neanderthol who was in charge of discovering fire was afraid to change the way things were done...ergo: eating raw pterodactyl meat..which must've been yucky..to say the least...at the risk of sounding cliche....the only thing that does not change is change..it is inevitable..it is infinite...it transcends all barriers..natural and man-made...it is part of the bigger picture..and by bigger picture..i mean all of creation...some obvious and others not quite...so, exactly how does a percieved change in the personality of one human being throw the entire universe off course and hurtling towards nothingness and bringing about the apocalypse??

the world changes...

people change to keep up with it....

nothing is ever the same...

if it was..it'd be very..very creepily wrong...

why is it that everyday,again and again you hear the same problems from almost everyone?????......"everyone around me is changing but me"..... Gosh!!....i always thought to myself.....why cant i or we be the people that never changed ...the person who always stuck to who we wanted to be and not who other people wanted us to be?? Is not that a sign of being unique too?? ....why is it that everyone these days care so much about how they look in others eyes??....what is the point of trying to please eveyone??.....FIRSTLY, IT NEVER WORKS!!!....you can't please everyone no matter how hard you try....and in the process of it, you're just making your self more sad and deppressed at the fact that not everyone likes you......don't you think it is easier to just face the fact that everyone has their own opinions and judgements and not all of them are the same??....SECONDLY, the thought of having a perfect image which is what most teenagers try to put these days is just exhausting!!!....i can't imagine trying to be perfect all the time.....it is just to tiring and just as i said earlier, it just makes us sad and depressed that we can't be perfect when in reality....NO ONE IS PERFECT!!.....THIRDLY, you will find that it is much more easier to just be yourself.....you dont have to put any mask in front of others and putt on a personality that you are not even sure you like......you can JUST BE YOURSELF....your free to act as you want without worrying that someone out there does not like what you are doing. Face the fact. Not everyone will like you for who you are but as i said earlier you can't please everyone so don't exhaust yourself doing it. The effect of putting on a mask in frront of eveyone will definately have an effect on you. Somehow or other....your true personality will come out and then everything that you had built on with the fake mask that you had put on earlier will crash to bits. So, take the easy road and just show your friends and family who the realy you is and let them love you for who you really are. There is no point in having friends if all they love you for is for the fake personality that you sadly put on in front of them. If they can't except your true personality, they should not be your friends in the first place because clearly, your hanging out with the wrong crowd.The moral of what a simple teenager like me is trying to point out here is that we should not worry if everyone around is not always the same. People change but that does not mean that we have to change to suit them too. We should respect them for who they really are and in turn, they will probably respect you for who you are too. If they don't, they are just missing out on getting to know the fantastic person you really are inside.For those who are readind this, i just want to say that i am not perfect and i am not trying to be perfect and it has made me the happy person that i am and i always want to be. i am thankful to have my friends because they accept me for who i am and i respect them for who they are instead. Life is partly about loving and understanding each other anyway right??? so let us play our pat in making this world a little more better a place to live in for the sake of al of us.....all we have to do is just to BE OURSELVES!!


signing off,
shal...

to the last entry....i have only this to say::huh??....lolz

okie.....finally someone updates this blog after God knows how many monthes since i posted the last 2 entries......i know i know....i shouldnt be here at the moment....should be studyin and crammin my brain with nonsense......blablablabla.....oh dont be a ninny....i am i am.....i am renowned for my ability to multi-task....haha....

anywayz.....charlie and the chocolate factory is coming our way.........cant wait to watch it....u guys keeps urselfs free......okies.....gtg hit the books.......cyaz

hah...i have beat u once again ...title fiend...how dare u dare me to dare myself to come up with a daring title???i have won the bet..title box...u suck...bwahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! crazy much??? dont answer that...i have just come here on this very auspicious day.. to pass my royal be-all-and-end-all-supreme-ruler-of the-world decree...ahem..ahem..ahemhemem...from here on forth i, the be all and end all..blablabla...(*cue: loud, almost bordering on fanatical worship type cheering and applause)have decided to once again revive this blog..which has unfortunately become a neglected decrepit lil hole because of the extreme measures deployed by the education ministry to rid us of any and every original thought and idea by forcing us to read their poopy books about which dead dude did what when and died anyway...yes...i have caught on..i knew there was something fishy about this whole.."we're teaching y'all crap for your own good" business...fishy..fishy..fishy...do u smell that...smells like fish...owh wait...thats jusz the bleagh..yucky yuck yuck history book smelling like fish...seee...even it hates its hypocritical and (dare i say it??) ultimately meaning less existence..(come on..be honest..how many ppl r gonna remember what this dead guy did and why he was famous in obscure country in the 4th century B.C. that doesnt even exist now??)

education system bashing sequence completed...

......mIsSiOn AcCoMpLiShEd.......

bwahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....

this is a prior notice for those of y'all who r

1. squeamish
2. easily annoyed
3. one of those who find the liberal usage of profanity to be a serious problem....

if u r one of the above...i suggest u stay away from this post...i feel like bitching bout everything from flip flops to phone thieves so unless ur tolerant....GO AWAY!!!!

causes for complaint

1. my only source of pride and joy has been snatched away from me....damn druggie stole my fone....may he rest in pieces...the sooner the better...may he be stricken by some horrigible, incurable disease...may my phone short circuit and blow up while he's using it...may he rot and never get a moment of silence while the voices in his head taunt him and convince him that jumping off bulidings is perfectly normal...here's hoping he listens to those lil voices..

now..we shall commence with a funeral for the best phone that ever was...dearly beloved, we r gathered here today to bid our final farewells to Phone. phone was a gentle soul, always accomodating,always there when i needed solace, always supportive, never once did he die on me, always did his best to cover up for my procrastinate-ey ways by being in powersave mode most of the time, never complained when batteries were gonna run out...never once uttered a word against me..(which is kinda duh...but thats besides the point...)..

"and now i lay u down to sleep,

not six feet under..im sorry,

cos the druggie took u for keeps,

find u one day though i will,

when i do...the druggie i will kill,

end his miserable existence on a whim,

i doubt anyone will bother looking for him,

dump him into the river i shall,

for thinking he could take u and live peacefully as well,

mistakes shouldnt have been made,

as we speak his life light shall fade,

doomed to live a tortured soul,

this curse shan't be lifted even if he offers his weight in gold."

such is the wrath of a girl in severe sorrow...my sympathies be upon u, poor soul...who dareth steal my electronic device...

this self composed show of fury,disgust and disdain towards the miserable illiterate fool who had the moxie to steal MY..(read: almighty effervescent queen of the entire universe and its contents)  phone is now over...

brace urselves for the tirade of rants and bad language that is about to befall y'all...

u noe what...on second thought...to hell with him and all his kin...and yes ..i mean that...no wait..maybe i dont...yes..no..yes..no..oh i dont noe...who careslah...god..if ur reading this,..do sumthin k? wahtever u deem necessary..and by that i mean to him..and if a new phone is written in my kismat..pls make it the same type as what was viciously stolen by that bewakoof...thank u, god..i owe u all n more...